so, today i found my old mobile phone from over 12 months ago. i was surprised to see that 300+ text messages had remained on the phone when i turned it on. surprise soon turned to curiosity and as flicking through the texts, curiosity turned to a whole lot of 'ha!' moments.
i found texts from old flames professing their love, beautiful quotes and inspirations from friends and i uncovered so many secrets.
in particular, i found text messages from an old acquaintance sharing their negative (to put it lightly) thoughts and perspectives about another of our mutual acquaintances. reading over the 50+ messages from said acquaintance, i couldn't fathom that these two, once mortal enemies, were now, 12 months later, the greatest of friends. 12 months ago, these two friends were considered two of the closest and most respected people in my life. today, i don't speak with either of them. this turn of events caused me to ponder change... (and admittedly, an opportunity for blackmail and revenge - of which i, of course, didn't indulge in)
i can count on one hand the number of people who i am still very much in love with and in contact with today that i was 12 months ago (family excluded). the vast number of new faces that are part of my surroundings, however, are too many to count. i'll often sit there, while downing a latte with a couple of friends and reflect that 6 or 12 months ago - i had no idea who this person was, let alone be sitting with them, discussing each others lives in depth.
looking through these text messages, i felt moments of regret that i had let some people slip from my life. at the same time, i felt moments of relief that some had disappeared. these text messages and the memories they held, proved an incredible illustration of the growth and change that i've experienced. my life is definitely fuller 12 months on and these memories, both positive and negative, have contributed to the volume. for that, i'm grateful.
regrets and reflections aside, i'm cool with change.
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